There was a time in my life when I thought I understood how things were supposed to work—especially in marriage. I believed that if you loved hard enough, tried enough, and did all the “right” things, everything would fall into place.
But God had a different plan.
My marriage became a place of deep stretching—one that challenged me to understand what marriage represents and Who created it. What I once tried to fix with logic, effort, and control, God began to unravel and rebuild through surrender. When you have a God size problem on your hands— there is no other option but to fully surrender and accept that our battles are fought in our prayer closets, on our hands and knees — and a lot of times, in the waiting.
What began as a season of separation became a place where God started to reshape me into a vessel that He could use. Instead of relying on my own logic or trying to fix things in my own strength, He has been teaching me how to truly wait on Him—with faith, surrender, and trust.
This refinement through fire is how CBN became to be. What felt like brokenness became purpose. God took my pain, my questions, my regrets, and turned it into growth. Something that can encourage and uplift other women walking through their own seasons.
This journey is still unfolding, but I know God is faithful in every season—especially in the waiting. To my son, Cashtyn, you are one of my greatest blessings—a constant reminder of God’s goodness and grace, even in the middle of uncertainty.
To my husband, Armando,
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
